Friday, 12 October 2018


You 
I have been looking for you
to feel your eyes on me 
read 
comprehend 
analyse
speak 
repeat me 

I don't know your shape
I just want you 
to let me 
roll 
on your tongue 
breathe 
your lips
allow
me to hold you
let me 
surprise you
stay,
go, 
like a dream you don’t remember

You 
may love me
sing me
change
me
get lost
remain...
but right now?
I am
this.


- Titled With love from Paper’

Sunday, 7 October 2018

Mirror

A look at my lover's face
And I see a mirror
The circles under my eyes
Are now as heavy as his


I presume the fate of a heart
that loves to heal an injured one
is quite the same -

It's not his fault I got cut
from the reflection of myself
I saw in him. 

Tuesday, 17 July 2018

a figment of my reality

your mind is a live painting 
I can see my strokes 
on your conscience 
and your mistakes 
reflect on my 
inability to draw 

how I wish 
you lived on canvas instead
so I could
fuck you up 
and call it 
Abstract art. 

Friday, 15 June 2018

Stranger


People ask me
How is it that I live in a stranger city
That I visit far away strange places
Laugh with strange people
I tell them
I have been raised by strangers
Known- unknown were but a divide of time
That I have been passed from strange hands to stranger
That every one in my life have shown
how the best of them could be
Stranger.

Sunday, 6 May 2018

Strip the flesh, Salt the wound. (Chant of a Masochrist)


STRIP THE FLESH, SALT THE WOUND


His wounds
Like parted lips kissing
The coffin on his back.

Strip the flesh, salt the wound.

Crack of leather discipline,
Whips through the arid air
Caressing the skin with scars.

Strip the flesh, Salt the wound.

Above his brow
Rests a crown,
Thorns prickly sweet.

Strip the flesh, Salt the wound.

Mallet crashes from on high
Nail driven through flesh
Wood suckles like a hungry babe.

Strip the flesh, Salt the wound.

Behold his form
Stretched against the oak
Revel in the pain

Strip the flesh, Salt the wound.

Sin shalt only be cleansed by pain
He suffered so we did not,
The selfish prick.

Strip the flesh, Salt the wound.
































The Salesman


THE SALESMAN

Hello,
May I bother you for a minute?
I sell in fake smiles.
It will cost you nothing,
On my honour I swear.
The trick is
To pull your lips back,
Just so.
Expose the first molars,
Just so.
Notice
Just how my canines
Show the fierceness
Of my joy.
If you wish you can,
Use your fingers
To pull apart the sides,
Just so.
It may be hard to talk,
However,
The pure beauty of it,
Is you don't have to talk
At all.







reflective essay


Reflective Essay

I really found this course to be very productive, I believe it taught me many valuable skills to help me progress with my thinking skills about poetry and of course in my music. This course is set out clearly and logically and has all the information necessary about poetry. It was really a well-structured course and here I also got to know how things take shape and how things structures step by step. It was a great experience to see a small exercise converted into poetry. Initially, I don’t have any idea that how we would do this but gradually we start getting the idea. Our knowledgeable faculty Mr Akhil Katyar who were able to balance constructive criticism with positive encouragement. They have been very supportive throughout the year. I've really enjoyed learning from faculty and getting their professional perspective on my thinking, I now feel that I have the necessary knowledge to develop some ideas about poetry.

I am not from the literature background and never  wrote poetry in my life and here I got chance to learn poetry and the lovely part is I am also getting love towards it. I think I will never stop writing poetry from now. Basically, I am a music practitioner, I have learning Hindustani music for a long time and Hindustani music is something where we more emphasis on swars rather its lyrics but now after did this course I am thinking about its lyrical value too. And not only this there were many things which I have never thought but after being the student of performance studies and crafting poetry student I am able to think towards those words and areas. This course not only limited to poetry rather it was a whole package of many different skills.
I really enjoyed the teaching method here and the way faculties treat us. In our initial classes, we did some discussion on love poetry and sir said that love poetry is a way to get in the poetry world. Being a student of music I have heard lots of poetries but never think about the genres of it here I learn about a big world of poetry and its grammar. this kind of poetry is really new for me I am really thankful for this course for introducing me this kind of poetries and method.

I really like the way when we read poems in class and discuss it together in small groups that really helped in connecting with the poems and with my classmates. And the way they give us freedom for thinking on it and also doing it freely really helped me.


As I reflect upon on my strengths and weaknesses as related to this course; my greatest fear is the public performance and in this course, we have been performing in front of the public which I found helpful to overcome from my hesitation although I performed so less in this course I learned so many things about performance. There were many different stages of the course where I enjoyed so much one of them was writing gazals. Gazal is something which I have been listening for a long time but I have never thought of writing it, this course made me do it. When I was writing, I was in a big confusion that should I write in Hindi or English? Although I choose to write in Hindi and translate it. and  other difficult thing for me was to write political poems. As the major part of this course based on different genres of poetry because of this, I could understand different dimensions of it.


 Somewhere I have regret because I missed many classes due to my other engagements and responsibilities I didn’t want to miss but I had to I am really thankful to our faculty that they understood my problem supported me.

It was not just a course for me rather it was an experience of life which taught me many different things about life, about people and most importantly about music. I am from a music background and this course was connected with music in a different manner but that manner was new for me and that’s really an interesting part for me. I have been trying to take practical courses from the starting of my second year. First I took materiality and performance that was also very interesting and my experience was really good. And in this course crafting poetry, I got through many different dynamics of life, Music and professional things. It was a fully practical course which made us more knowledgeable and opened more paths in arts. I have to say that I changed after this course. I did many things here which I never did in my life. 

In closing, I would like to add that I have really enjoyed the experience of this class. It has been good for me to learn with experienced faculty and my lovely cohorts. Thank you for your help and patience.